These verses express some thoughts of emptiness, deficiency, loss, incompleteness of people forced to assume an alien name and identity.
Who am I?
Know my ancestors’ identity, enterprise, vainly, long, I tried,
They acknowledged, answered to name, Barzin, I was denied.
Did they sculpt stones, new palace at Shush, Darius’d decide?
With Xerxes, avenge, retribute, burning, Sardis, Greece, ride?
Disastrous battles at Gaugamela, Qadiseyeh, Nahavand, died?
Rejoice, exult in triumph, victory of Edessa, at Shapur’s side?
Baharestan carpet, Khosrow’s Ctesiphon iwan, weave, dyed?
Azargoshasb’s everlasting flame, tend, piety, devotion, abide?
O! I am well and truly lost
I’ve traveled far, to see shrines, not my own,
Half a faith in a deity, divinity, not my own.
Half comprehending scriptures, not my own,
I’m well, truly lost, with a belief, not my own.
When home, name, identity, faith, all are lost,
What gain, attainment, I paid the heavy cost?
What of us, the vanquished?
To the victor, the spoils, widely prevalent, accepted thought,
Vanquished, defeated, conquered, worsted, what is their lot?
No stories, tales, fables for children, lullabies for newly born,
No heroes, champions, to emulate, imitate, martyrs to mourn.
No Gods to worship, glorify, revere, extol, scripture he reads,
Soul was stolen from a ravaged, desecrated land, that bleeds.
I wasn't told
Uncivilized barbarian, crude savage, I was, I was told.
My conquerors were my heroes, champions, I was told.
Their names, identities should now be mine, I was told.
My forefathers’ faith, I could not perpetuate,I was told.
Lie, fabrication, fiction, untruth, my history, I was told.
My scriptures would be burnt, heat hamams, I was told.
My science, arts, medicines would be theirs, I was told.
I'd communicate in their language, not mine I was told.
Enslaved body, captive, vassal my thoughts, I was told.
For what crime, misdeeds, transgression, I wasn’t told.
Reinvented and reforged
I have been recast, reforged, reinvented, renamed,
By my conqueror's identity,faith, prejudice named.
Of my own pride, honour, dignity nothing remains,
Pale feeble apologetic image in self denial remains.
My beliefs, convictions, unsure, uncertain,unclear,
Which opinions, ideologies, doctrines to hold dear.